October 17th

Today was my official due date with Jonathan.  Who knows if he would have actually arrived today, earlier or later - all I can think about today is that he is not here.  It makes me sad and brings me to tears as I type out the words.  I miss him so much.  I miss being pregnant.  I pray every night that Jack and I will continue to grow our little family and that God will bless us with another baby soon.  But we will never forget our first baby, our little angel baby Jonathan.

This month is also Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day.  On October 15th, people take a moment to remember those babies who were lost to a miscarriage, still-birth, SIDS or death of a newborn.  I know the day has come and gone, but please take a moment today to pray for all of the mom's and dad's out there who have lost children way too soon.  Pray that they continue to be comforted by God's grace and His plan.

1 Samuel 1:27
 I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him.


Thank you God, for giving us Jonathan.  Even though it was for a short time, you had bigger plans for him.  He was so special, he had to become an angel right away.  Jonathan is not here with us, but he made us parents from the start and we are grateful.